New Years Resolution!

Well ~ a new year is upon us! Can i just say... finally! It feels like a brand new start. A new number to write. A new slate. Last year seems like a haze... so much happened and so many many emotions were felt. I am finally feeling refreshed. No, the pain of last year is not gone or forgotten, but somehow it seems less. I've discovered a few things about myself too.... and so stemmed my New Years Resolution.

I am going to be happy.

Simple.

Life has a tendency to suck. Big time. We never get what we want, and when we do, somehow we just complain about it anyway! Then we want something else, and we won't be happy till we get it!! But - the whole cycle starts all over again! I want i want.... I have filled my mind with this. (still do....) but how am i ever going to be happy if i am always in want?

I will be happy right now. With what i have - because it sure is a lot more then some people have.

I have a house, i have wonderful! friends, i have an amazing! family, i have jackets and mitts to keep me warm, a bed to sleep in and cloths to put on my body. I have water to drink and food to eat... really, what more could i need??

I am going to be happy with me.

I have succeed in so many ways already! I have a business that is growing! I am still standing after 4 miscarriages, i am doing things in my life that i Love!!

I will feel comfortable in my skin.

No matter if i weigh 100 lbs, or 160 lbs.... Do i want to lose weight! Yes! But i'm going to start from the inside. Eat healthy. Do exercise i enjoy! I will not feel ashamed. I weighed myself at Christmas - and yes, i will share. I was 161 lbs. yikes! But i know i am beautiful! I know that i had a tough couple of months, and my weight does not define me.

I will be happy.

And pray.

And thank God every single day that i am on this earth.