Where am i going?

Today, i have to work on patience, being content with my life, understanding, knowledge, confidence, perseverance.....




is there one day that i can have to be me?
is there one hour that i can feel comfortable in my own skin?
what about the one second that i know who i am?

Why does everyday feel like a struggle?



Tomorrow i will work on liking my job, patience, understanding, liking who i am, knowing i'm right where i'm supposed to be.......

I figured it was time for some portraits that i've taken.... here is my beautiful friend Rosy...

To be different -

It's something to be different in this world we live. Where one follows another after another after another. Wants overcome needs, deception mimics desire. Nothing is right and everything is wrong. I often feel like you... and am confused when i don't know who i am. So many words, sentences and paragraphs yet i can't tell you how i feel. Every step i take i am lost, every second that passes i can no longer change. I am different, then you, then even me. I search this world just to find something that will make sense. I read every book to see something that will help me make up my mind. You are different still i see, i am like you....My heart is longing, my soul is yearning. For things to change but this second is now gone... My mind wonders my eyes shift - what then, is there to see? What is there to think. Can i be different? then you, then me?

I feel like I'm
searching
seeking
don't feel comfortable
my skin itches

Need
more money
better clothes
Want
to be a rockstar
be someone to somebody

Controlled by my fears

Darkness dominates

So
i sit here in silence

watching my breath.

I think i need a new challange..... something to take really cool photos of.... i have this brand new digital camera, and the ability to use photoshop...

Somehow lately i am lacking inspiration. I feel lazy and unmotivated. There is beauty all around, wonders around the earth that have never been discovered... ok, well, things around my city that i could put on film so beautifully....

stay awhile... and see read. Take a look and hear. New stuff is coming soon!!